Be warned-very ramblish

It's been awhile. Lots of jumbly thoughts in my head. Our purple sold! The gold put us well over our gold goal for lvl 60. I am happy for Dammy as he made it all possible. I am also awesome, if you want to know. I flipped several items over the weekend for major gold profit. Defias gear picked up at 50 silver and sold for 5 gold. Gear that cost me a gold to buy and for some reason people were willing to buy at 15 to 20 gold (they weren't blues-but I'm not complaining). While I'm waiting for Dammy to get to 58 I'm leveling up cooking. It's at 80 right now, I think. I'm being a good economic orc-wife and farming my own supplies for my cooking forays. Fishing is at 175 and I am slowly-ever so slowly-leveling that up. I do not have the temperament of a fisherman. Um, not much other news in the world of Beowulfa. Let's move on to her avatar.

I'm thinking of retiring from my beloved bookstore. I've been with the company for 8 years now. I enjoy my hours, we like the extra cash it brings in. But Dammy misses me and neither of us gets a break because he's on orclette-duty over the weekend and I'm on during the week. So, I'm going to retire. Ouch. I just can't bring myself to make the final decision. I think it's among the hardest I've had to make. To illustrate: After 2 weeks of dating Dammy asked my dad if he could marry me. I said yes without hesitation (both sets of parents weren't able to protest because their courtship's were similar in length). I uprooted myself and followed him here so he could get a new job. I had one crazy day that I wanted to have a kid and it happened. I knew what to name my daughter. I got tattooed several times (they were pretty, and I had JUST the right outfit to show them off .......) without mulling over the ramifications. Can you see why I'm sort of laughing at myself? I can't quit a retail job. To spend time with Orclette and take her to the zoo and show her all the raptors and lions and tigers and bears. To catch a matinee with Dammy. Sigh.

And a whole other issue associated with leaving my bookstore. I'll be an official Stay-At-Home-Mom. SAHM. I can't call myself that. I never wanted to be that. I never understood the females that were born wanting kids and being a "homemaker." And here I am. My bookstore let me say that I worked part-time and made all the full-time mothers envious. But upon leaving, I'll not have that option. I'm getting re-certified as a soccer referee and I'll be doing that but it's just not the same. On the other hand, I now am a chef, a personal accountant, a maid (with all the daring French outfits, of course=), full-time daycare, interior designer, personal shopper, life coach, teacher, and the list goes on. So maybe when people ask me what I do (and apparently they don't count Orclette as being any work, they want to know what I do) I'll answer with one of those and make myself sound really smart.

Thanks for listening. I've had no-one to spew this out to because people don't want to hear you talk, they want to talk to you. And I'm trying to be a better listener. So I don't force the issue. And then I'm left with lots of things to say and they will out.